[Nana Nea'ya Cinone Journey Of Life]

Happy 8th Birthday Erra

2011-12-24T10:34:00.000+08:00

19 December 2011

Happy 8yr old Birthday Erra Hafizah Binte Mohamad Shariff!!

Papa dan Mama doakan Erra dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki.Semoga Erra sihat dan gembira selalu.Semoga Allah sentiase melindungi diri Erra dari perbuatan yang buruk dan tunjukkan Erra segala perkara yang bole Erra lalkukan untuk menuju ke Syurga.Erra mesti belajar rajin2 untuk kesenangan pade mase hadapan dan jadi anak yang soleha..Semoga Erra bahagia menyambut hari yang sangat bermakna ini denagan orang2 yang tersayang...

This is the only place we could wish her.But 12MN sharp we write and post at her FB wall.Untill now we didnt know has she read it or not.Every each year she's growing up and now she's already 8yrs old.The last time we met her was 3yrs back and she was only 5yrs old.The cute face that we use to pinch and kiss has no more.She is now abit tall and thin.We dont know whether she didnt eat her meal properly since after we didnt meet anymore.Her skin tone is also getting darker.What we had saw at her FB photo is,she's different from last time.

My sweet girl Erra,if you could read this,we want to let you know that WE MISS YOU so much.We had never forget you although we didnt call or meet you.We just hope Allah will give us the chance to meet again one day.Take good care of urself my girl. Muackz muackz muackz muackz...

Love and Miss Always,
Papa Shariff & Mama Nana.

Happy 5yrs 5mth Anniversary Sayang!!

2011-12-03T10:12:00.000+08:00

01 December 2011

Happy 5yrs 5mth Anniversary Sayang!!

Mama berdoa agar hubungan yg kite jalani selama ini akan berkekalan. Mama juga berdoa agar Allah khabulkan doa dan permintaan kite suatu hari nnt. 8 hari bulan ini juga sudah genap 11bulan kite bertunang. Kite sudah pon faham,lihat dan alami pelbagai pahit dan manis di alam pertungan ini. Semaga kite kuat untuk tempuhi pelbagai cobaan dan dugaan yg akan di duga oleh Allah pada hari2 yg akan datang.

Sayang.. Mama harap hati dan perasaan papa hanya kepada mama saje. Mama harap kite akan sentiase "Jujur,Hormat,Menyayangi,Persefahaman dan Ikhlas" terhadap satu sama lain semoga tiada salah faham antare kite. Mama ingin papa tahu bahawe hati dan sayang mama hanya untuk papa seorg. Tiada siapa yg dapat menggantikan diri papa.

Mama harap suatu hari nnt,kite akan berubah diri menjadi org yg lebih baik dan berguna bagi masyarakat,kawan2 dan juga keluarga. Thank you for the present (Baby-G watch). Sowie i didnt get for you any present..

Mama will love you till the end of my breath.

Miss u always Sayang Junior...

My Fiancee Birthday

2011-11-11T18:16:00.000+08:00

11 November 2011

It was my fiancee 'Mohamad Shariff Bin Zainol Birthday.He turned 31 years old today..Each year we growing older by 1 year.When i recalled back,we started dating when his age was 26 years old.So fast the time fly each day.Now he's already in his 30's and im still in my 20's.That means we are still in "Young Adult" catagories.We still can work hard to find own income to have a better future and start a new life together.

Now both of us have a stable job after we get engaged.Every year on his birthday,i will give him a card either i make n wrote myself or i juz buy the most meaningful words written in the card.This year,im afford to get a present for him.I bought a pair of Nike shoes which he really want.I gave him a small surprise.The time was 12 mid-night sharp,i gather my family and together we surprise him by singing birthday song and bring out the birthday cake.I know he doesn't like surprises but i still insisted to give him surprise because i know it's not wrong.The next day,3hours more before reaching 12 mid-night,after his work,my family a treat him dinner at Choa Chu Kang Park "Rase Istimewa Restaurant".We order alot of dishes to eat together,I can see from his face that he's really happy on his special day this year as i feel this year's celebration is much more better than the previous year.I hope what i feel is right.I always prayed he was given a good health every minute to continue living for his future.Give him a better life and change him into a better person.

My Lovely Fiancee,i wish you Happy 31 years old.Hope whatever you pray for will come tru one day..Always love and missing you.

Your Fiancee Nana...

Happy 4yrs 9mth Anniversary Sayang

2011-04-10T18:14:00.004+08:00

[01 April 2011]

Happy 4yrs 9mth Anniversary Sayang..

Goin tru thick n thin since de day we started to get ourselves involved in BGF relationship till today we r engaged is all memorable to both of us.Hoping wat we wish de best for our future will come tru became reality one day.

Loving n missin u every minute sincerely is frm my heart....

2011-03-26T17:55:00.003+08:00

26 March 2011

Today is my last day working together wif my fwen MIRAH.

She's goin to transfer to AMK RTC.

She's de person who recomemded m diz job.

After today we not goin to work together again....

Next week SURYA last working in diz company.

She's goin to an SIA lady.

Good for her.

I juz wish for both of dem gd luck in their workin line..

Goin to miss u guyz...

Special day For Ibu

2010-11-22T12:46:00.005+08:00

" 20th NOVEMBER 2010 "
My Mother Birthday..

Junior & Me Bought Handbag As Her present..
" Brand BONIA "
This handbag really suits her.
She can use it whenever she goes out.

Ika Bought Perfume For My Mother..
" Pink Dreams "
I'm sure the smell is really nice.

After cutting birthday cake , took pictures with birthday girl & one by one of her children & children in-law feed her cakes , all of us went out for dinner at Marsiling Teh Tarik Coffee Shop. We ate seafood there. All that food cost $99 !! Birthday girl paid for it. Its her treat for us as she's the birthday girl..
So unlucky my mother kena ketok till $99 on her special day.

Mother.............
Ayah , Adik , Shariff , Aby , Abang , Ika & Ayie wish you
HAPPY 46th BIRTHDAY !!!!!!
Kami doakan Ibu panjang umur dan dimurahkan rezeki oleh Allah..
Semoga Ibu gembira menyambut hari yang sangat bahagia ini bersama orang yang tersayang.. Hope you like your presents..
Kami Sayang Ibu !!!!!!

My Love For U

2010-09-28T15:50:00.004+08:00

Sayang,im feelin so greatful having u as part of my life journey.
Watever i ever said or done towards u,i apologise.
I didnt meant all dat its juz de way i realise my stress,tention n feelin of angry.
I hope i could be more patient in future...

Sayang,i really hope watever we had wish for through out out journey since de 1st day we r together till today will come tru.

Day by day passes by,our love for each other becoming stronger n stronger.

I LOVE U SAYANG.

From Ur Dearest CINANEAYA

Tink it twice before i decide

2010-07-22T14:12:00.008+08:00

Im so mad at him.Why muz he be so kpo to check on my privacy tings?He was juz my boyfwen.We didnt have any ties yet so he didnt have de right to check on my tings.My person likes to be secretive toowards my family,boyfwen or even fwens.For 4yrs,he still donoe my type of person n characther.In our relationship for 4yrs,der is no words "TRUST" in his dictionary.He dont trust m "AT ALL".

Ive been tinkin abt my relationship wif him for a very long time.I get advices from de oldies but i still ignore thier words.Im stuck didnt noe wat should i do.I wanted to end de relationship bt i 'Terhutang Budi' towards him.He had been taking care of my life for 4yrs but i cant accept his bad tings towards m especially my parents didnt saw or even notice de bad sides of him.

I really need to tink about it carefully.I still remember my oldies words "KLAU DA TK SUKE LEBIH BAIK BILANG TERUS TERANG." I had de feelings he is not meant for m.He will found someone better den m in future and same goes to m.

Goin To Snow City

2010-04-10T21:38:00.005+08:00

On Friday 09/04/2010 afternoon,we went to Snow City.. Junior received 2 free entry ticket for only an hour to play in there. That was our first time entering Snow City. When we were in there,we need to take and put on a pair of boots and a jacket that were provided for each person. After everything is put on properly,den we enter the room.

Its not really fun in there because,we cant take our picture using our own camera. If we want to take picture in there,we will need to buy the picture package and camera women in there will take our picture. Then,theres a slope that we can play on and some furnitures to be decorated in the place to look nice...

My body is being covered by the jacket but my fingers are not. I can feel my finger is getting cold each minute and pooring in blood circulation. The stupid thing that i do is i place my 10 little fingers on the ice. Then my whole finger turns very red and cant even close it. I cant take the cold anymore so i say to Junior that im goin out. Once we go out of the room,we relex and took alot of our pictures using Junior's handphone. We stay there till the time is up.

Although we didnt had a great time in the Snow City but we are still happy because we get to feel the coldest aircon other than home aircon and that was our first time entering Snow City..

"Dumpty" Is My New Pet

2010-04-10T18:54:00.006+08:00

This is my pet "Dumpty".
Dumpty is a boy.
He is very fat & chubby. He loves to sleep,eat,drink & play. He's very lazy. He will spent more of his time on sleeping.

And this is how i get to meet with Dumpty.
Me & Junior saw Dumpty in his cage & was place infront of Pet Shop at Yishun Central at 2315hrs.. We felt his owner didnt want to take care of him anymore that's why he was place there. Me & Junior felt pitiful for him so we took him home wif us & we goin to take good care of him as diz is my first time having a hamster as my pet.We had to take cab instead of train just because i had Dumpty with me & no pets or animals are allowed to board it. We had to waste $15 on the cab fare as it already mid-nite charge.

The next next two days,me & Junior went to buy some stuff for Dumpty. And all the things cost $20. There's still some of the things that need to be changed such as the exercise wheel and the water bottle which cant be use any longer,we will buy it other time.

Junior say,just because of Dumpty,he need to fork out so much money for his things. I know he was just joking and didnt mean it because he was the one who ask me to take care of Dumpty. I still have alot of things to know about hamster & learn from Junior.

I hope i could buy another hamster to let them married & have children so i will have alot of hamsters at home...

Happy Day

2010-04-07T23:59:00.005+08:00

02 March 2010 is my 22nd Bday..
Junior and m had a big fight till he gave m a big present which is "Break Up". I really have de feelings dat we cant continue our relationship anymore..

But..On 03 March 2010,he apologise to m..He didnt mean wat he said to m..
He gave m a present for my Bday n our Anniversary present..And we get back together..

Happy 22nd Bday To Me & Happy 3yrs 9mth Anniversary to m & Junior...

Thank u so much Sayang..

My Pet Named DUMPTY

2010-04-07T19:15:00.005+08:00

I miss my son Muhamad Nur Akid so much diz few days bt after getin a new pet which m n junior found it infront of pets lover store at yishun,i felt much better now coz wen i miss my so much,i will look at my pet n i will b much better den being very sad n kept tinkin of my son.

Now we had a new pet.It was Hamster.. We gave it a name "DUMPTY".The reason for us gave it dat name bcoz its very fat n very cute.But we didnt noe weather it was a gal or a guy.We need to bring dumpty to Yew Tee Pets Lover Shop juz to identify its gender..Im so happy coz dumpty follow m home..Bcoz of dumpty,i have to waste $15 on cab fare.But its ok..Once in a life time ony.Den de next day,i have to spent $6 on dumpty food..Haiz wat a waste.

Friday,dumpty is goin to have a free wash up from m n junior.We goin to bath it wif soap so dat dumpty will stop scratching n smells very nice.
But i still miss my baby son..

My Nurses Fwenz.

2010-02-12T15:53:00.001+08:00

[ My Nurses Gal Fwenz ]

[ This is all my NUH Grp 1 Fwenz ]

I miss my nursing fwen..
I dont noe wen can we meet again..
This pic was taken on the last day of our CP and we waiting for the bus to go back to skol..
Everybody is so happy n excited to go back to skol.

Mohamad Nur Akid

2010-01-13T07:02:00.000+08:00

Semalam pagi,junior temankan aku pegi ziarah kubur anak aku Mohamad Nur Akid.Da lame jugak aku tak datang ziarah kubur anak aku.Aku ingat lagi kali terakhir aku ke sane tahun lepas dalam bulan sembilan.Baru semalam la aku dapat pegi lagi.Setiap kali aku nak ke sane,ade saje sangkak example takde sape yang free bole teman aku pegi,junior keje,hujan la,datang haid la and macam-macam lagi la.Junior pulak tak benarkan aku pegi sendiri makhlum la keselamatan yang tercinta paling penting.Aku masih tak tau kenape aku maseh belom dapat terime hakikatnye bahawe anak aku da pegi tinggalkan aku sudah selame tiga tahun lebih dan sekarang die menunggu aku di pintu syurga yang akan aku duduk suatu hari nanti entah la bile.Aku sedekahkan al-fatihah,derdoa kepade allah supaye mencucuri rahmatnye.Satiap kali aku berdoa untuk anakku Akid,titisan air mate aku akan sentiase mengalir tanpa henti.Aku merasa sangat sedih sebab aku tidak dapat menjage anakku semase di dalam kandungan aku dengan baik,aku tidak dapat melihat dan membesarkan anakku seperti anak-anak orang lain,aku tidak dapat memeluk,mendukong,mencium dan melihat matanye dengan lame.Aku juga ade merasa bersalah sebabkan aku,anakku Akid keguguran dalam rahim aku.Klau aku tak pernah ade niat untuk menggugurkan kandungan aku,mungkin anakku tidak akan pergi.Tapi alhamdulillah aku sempat pegi KKH untuk membuat appoinment guguran anak tapi berat hati aku ini untuk melanjutkannye selepas aku pegi buat scan dalam perot aku dan aku dapat melihat anakku sudah pon besar dan sempurna.Aku tidak berniat langsung untuk guguran itu tapi kerana lelaki yang hendak bertanggungjawap itu maseh lagi duduk di bawah ketiak mak.Aku teros batalkan appointment aku di KKH dan simpan kandungan aku sehingga aku keguguran.Orang-orang kate,mungkin allah mengambil Akid mase lagi dalam kandungan aku sebab allah tidak mahu Akid menderite bile sudah dilahirkan,mungkin belum masenye untuk aku hamilkan Akid,dan allah lebih sayangkan Akid..Aku tidak pernah lupe saat aku maseh di dalam hospital hendak melahirkan Akid.Aku dapat melihat dan memeluk nya walaupon hanye sekejab sebelum di kebumikan....

Akid,mama nak akid tau bahawe mama lebih menyayangi akid daripade sesiape yang juge berade dalam hati mama ini.Mama simpan gambar akid di dalam frame supaye mama dapat melihat han merenung gambar akid setiap kali mama teringat dan rindukan akid..Jika mama dikurniakan zuriat lelaki bile mama da nikah nanti,mama akan beri namenye Mohamd Nur Aniq....Mama rindu sangat pat Akid anak mama yang sangat mama cintai..

Happy 29th Birthday Sayang

2009-12-30T16:41:00.001+08:00

"Happy 29th Birthday Junior"

"Papa Junior"

Mama Wishing You Happy 29th B'Day On 11th November 2009.

Mama Doakan Semoga Papa Dipanjangkan Umur Dan Dimurahkan Rezeki Oleh Allah.Mama Sowie Coz Mama Got No Money To Buy You Expensive Present.Only Diz Which I Can Afford To Give You As A Present..

Mama Untuk Papa

Suap Papa Cake

Papa Suap Mama

Happy 3rd Years Anniversary Sayang

2009-07-01T13:25:00.000+08:00

Today,im celebrating my 3rd year Anniverasry wif my lovely guy "Junior".
Im happy bcoz we have gone tru thick & thin together till today although sometimes we quarrel from small mistake bcome big.
I know i love him so much which makes m not know how to express my love to him anymore.
I also know dat he loves m the same as i do to him only sometimes i felt he over loved and care for m too much.
I hope to see my lovely olg guy who is very sweet like de 1st time we met.
I know after time and dayz goes by,people change.
I hope dat he wont change to someone dat i dont know.
I hope we cuold open a new book of life starting today.
Change our own bad character n personality to become someone new who is good,sweet,caring,loving and etc..
Hope waetever dat we wish for will come tru...

Feels , Think , Listen , Understand

2009-06-23T00:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes people don't understand how we feel
people don't really know what we want
people don't want to listen to us

People just want us to follow , listen and understand them
Although that particular person is someone who is very close and near to us

I feel very frustrated with this type of people
I don't know should i revenge or just keep quite

What i know now is to repay on whatever i was given by that person
repay on what i've bought using that person's
money since the day i use the money

I don;t know to who i should say
Only to my blog
Im not perfect

Papa Coming Home

2009-01-27T00:35:00.000+08:00

It's been a long time dat aku tak masok blog ni..
Macam malas pon ade,buzy pon ade...
But today,aku masok je la nak tgk ape da jadi dgn blog ni...
Btw,papa nak balik bsk.
Papa sampai spore dlm kol 8mlm.
Aku g fetch papa pat airport.
Aku tk sabar sangat nak jmp dgn papa..
Aku nak peluk papa dgn kuat..
Aku tak nak lepaskan papa..
Aku nak lepaskan rindu aku yang terlampau ni pat papa.

Aku ade edit gambar yang nk aku tunjuk pat papa..
I hope papa will like it...
Tgk ape akan terjadi bile aku jumpe papa bsk....

SELAMAT ULANG TAHUN AFIQ DAN ERRA!!

2008-12-30T14:32:00.000+08:00

Aku hapi sangat sebab dapt jumpe dengan budak2..

Aku amek both AFIQ and ERRA pat ruma bedok..

Bile nak amek dada berdebar2 sebab ini pertama kali aku amek diorang pat depan pintu rumah.

Tapi aku beranikan diri untuk pergi.

Aku bawak diorang pergi east coast santai,mandi2,picnic.

Kite naik car,adik boyfriend ku drive sebab aku tkde licence to drive pergi and balik.

Aku celebrate birthday budak2 tu pat sane skali dpn laptop dengan papa diorang "my boyfriend" yang sekarang ni ade pat SPAIN.

Atleast bapak diorang dapat celebrate birthday diorang same2..

Aku harap ini menjadi satu kenangan yang tak akan papa lupakan.

Aku bukan sahaja gembira tapi bercamurkan dengan kesedihan yang tak mahu aku inginkan pada hari lain which is papa takde bile aku bawa budak2 keluar jalan2..

Papa takde untuk maek dan hantar budak2 balik..

Papa takde untk bergurau dan bermain dengan budak2 pada hari yang sangat bermakna ini..

Aku sangat2 sedih hanya aku tidak mahu sesiapa yang tahu ataupon nampak..

Aku ingin membuat semua orang gembira..

At the end of the day lepas hanta budak2 balik,aku yakin sangat mesti mak,bapak papa ataupon nenek2 yang jage budak2 tu mesti ade yang tak suka dengan ape yang telah aku lakukan untuk budak...

Ape yang aku jangkakan itu memang betul..

Mak dan bapak papa berfikiran bahawa aku tidak pandai melayan budak2 dengan cara yang betul sehinggakan AFIQ dan ERRA bergaduh antara satu sama lain hanya kerana ingin mendekati aku..

Pada aku,ku sudah pon mencuba memberi sepenuh kasih sayang dan perhatian kepeda budak2 tapi kenepa masih juga ade comment yang negative towards aku?

Walaupon aku luahkan perasaan aku pat papa,papa tak bole buat ape2.

Papa hanya kata "SABAR JELAH MAMA"........

Aku sedih sangat sampai aku merasakan diri aku ini tak berjuna langsung dan tak patut aku mengambil AIQ dan ERRA keluar lagi.

Aku tidak akan bole dapat menukar fikiran mak dan bapak papa so the best thing is not to take the kids out again..

Aku pon penet nak melayan karenah mak dan bapak papa..

Telinga aku dah sakit untuk mendengar semua kata2 mereka..

Kalau di inkutkan hati aku yang marah ini,aku tak ingin lagi berhubungan dengan mak dan bapak papa lagi sebab ini bukan pertama kali aku mendapat comment yang negative tapi bole di kire dengan jari..

AKU PENAT!!!!!!!

AKU INGIN KAN PAPA PULANG UNTUNG MENEMANI AKU MENHADAPI CUBAAN DAN DUGAAN INI.AKU TAK KUAT DAN TAK BERDAYA UNTUK MENGHADAPI INI SEMUA KESEORANGAN!!!!!!!!!

Trip To Kuala Lumpur

2008-12-23T07:31:00.000+08:00

I juz reach home...
I juz came back from my holiday to KL.
I went to KL on friday nite and nw im back to my sweet home.
Im so happy dat i got a chance to travel to KL for holiday at the same time,visit my sepupu and my mak long.
It's been a long time i've not came to visit them and dat is why i don't even know or recognise my own sepupu...
They are from my father's side staying in Malaysia.
Our trip to KL is a 4hrs journey.
We went to KL by a MPV car drive by my father's friend who is goin to sent the 5 of us to my mak long house from Larkin.
We take mrt and bas to Larkin and continue our journey to KL by car.
We reached KL at mak long house about 4am.
The following days,we got a chance to go for shopping at Bukit Bintang.
I bouaght alots of things.
I buy for myself,my sayang and the two kids...
The following day,i got to go to Sunway Lagoon..
The place is much exciting than singapore swimming pool..
I love it...
I hope to came back again other day.
At nite b4 we went to our home town where we belongs to,i get to buy a last minit shoppig....
Im so happy to be o holiday...

Aku Rindu Kan PAPA

2008-12-17T19:57:00.000+08:00

Aku baru je samapi rumah dari lua..
Tadi aku pegi geylang dengan mak and adik2 aku.
Setakat nak beli baju yang kite nampak cantik sangat sampai mati2 nak beli baju tu.
Lepas beli baju,kite pegi makan.
Aku makan mee tom yum.
Tapi tak habis and buang2 makanan je..
Lepas makan kite pegi hospital tengok nenek atas.
Kite pat sane pon tak lame,sekejab je lepas tu balik..
Ni la aku baru sampai ruma..
Penat sangat badan ni dari minggu lepas sampai hari ni.
Aku sedih la sebab papa cume dapat bebual dengan aku sekejab je.
Kelmarin aku lagi aku tak dapat bebual dengan papa langsung satu hari cume pesanan dari papa that papa tak bole bebual dengan aku sebab papa busy sangat working
Sampai la aku nangis2 malam sebelum tido teringatkan papa.
Aku rindu sangat pat papa so tiap2 malam aku tengok bulan sebelum tido..
Ini sebab aku pernah bilang pat papa that kalau papa rindu pat aku,papa tengok la bulan and aku pon tengok bulan bile aku rindu pat papa..
Da nak masuk sebulan papa pegi ke spain.
Tak sangke da lame jugak papa pegi..
Bile la masenye papa dapat balik spore?
Aku rindu sangat pat papa..
Aku hope sangat papa dapat balik cepat2..
Aku nak peluk papa tak nak lepas lagi...
Rindu sangat sangat sangat sangat pat papa muack muacks muacks muacks muacks.....

Tengok bulan

2008-12-17T19:26:00.001+08:00

Aku sedih sangat sebab papa takde..
Sampai aku nangis malam bile nak tido.
Aku dapat tengok bulan setiap malam dalam seminggu ini sebalum aku tido.
Kalau betol2 bulan tak akan timbul sebab tiap2 hari hujan dan bile malam pulak,cuaca mendung je.
Lagi pulak,papa da berape hari tak on-line video call and call aku sangat sebab papa busy sangat dengan work.
Jadi aku rindu sangat pat papa..
Aku pon belum kol mak papa.
Aku pon tak tau ape nak bebual dengan mak papa.
Nanti aku kol la mak papa..
Takut mak papa ingat aku ni tak ingat pasal mak papa pulak.
Aku pon nak plan dengan mak papa untuk amek budak2 either sebelum or selepas aku balik dari KL.
Im goin to KL dis friday nite...
Aku tak tau macam mane pulak nak contact papa..
Pening kepala aku memikir kan nye..

Last Day Of Attachment

2008-12-13T00:37:00.000+08:00

Today is de last day of attachment in NUH..

Im happi and at de same time,im sad also to leave de ward.

Our last day of attachment,we get chocolate frm de staff.

We give de ward a thank u card and a chocolate back to dem..

After work today,i went out wif my skol mate "nurul & marni".

We went to Shaw Lido at town area to watch a movie is name "BOLT" .

De movie is damn very2 funny bcoz it is a cartoon movie..

After watching movie,we went to Far East to have a walk.

Marni & Nurul bought a pair of shoe.After walking at Far East,We went back...

It's really fun to go out sometimes wif frenz to realise some stress frm work or home..

Some pic dat was taken b4 goin to town & time to go home...

2008-12-10T22:36:00.000+08:00

Aku dapat jumpe dgn afiq and erra semalam.Aku cepat2 jalan lepas keje sebab aku tak ade cukup mase lagi.Aku takut tk dapat jumpe dgn bdk2..Nasib baik aku cpt klau tidak,tk dapat la untuk aku berjumpe dgn bdk2...Aku happi sangat sbb bile aku sampai je pat uma papa,afiq and erra menyambut aku di depan pintu dengan senyuman yang sangat lebar dan memanggil aku "MAMA"..Aku tk sangke diorang mase jugak igat pada aku walaupon kite da lame sangat tk jumpe serase2nye nk masuk setahun.. Allhamdulillah diorang mase igat pade aku.Baru la aku tau dan kenal sape yang telah bertungkus lumus memberi makan dan minum,memberi sekolah dan menjaga diorang dengan baik sekali..Aku dapat ambil gambar dgn dirang dan meluahakn sedikit kerinduan yang selama ini aku pendam walaupon hanya sekejab sahaja..Aku dapat ciuman dr afiq and erra dan juga dapat mencium diorang seperti anak kandung ku sendiri..Aku dapat membelikan diorang minuman dan gula2.Aku memang merasa sedih sangat sbb aku dapat bermain2 dgn diorang hanya sekejab cuma aku tak tunjuk..Aku plan,aku nk klua dgn bdk2 lagi mase diorang masih cuti sekolah ni tp aku tk tau bile..Aku harap mase aku nk bwk bdk2,tiada halang lagi...Hmmmp klau la papa ade kan best smlm..Bole main2 dgn diorang lame ckit...Aku sangat merindu papa,afiq and erra..Hope to keluar mcm dulu lagi..

Dengar takbir..

2008-12-08T08:23:00.000+08:00

Aku sanggup tidur2 ayam hanya kerane aku nak dengar takbir raya pat radio..
Aku ON radio pat HP dari mlm sampai sekarang.
Bile aku dengar je takbir,aku pon message papa to inform die..
Itu pon papa dapat dengar sekejap je dalam 5minit.
Atleast la papa dapat dengar walaupon sekejab..
IM goin 2 kol his parents later...
c wat hppn later...

Ghairah untuk besok

2008-12-07T23:55:00.000+08:00

Bsk ahri raya haji..
Papa plk tkde pat s'pore..
Sedih sey.
Bsk pagi klau tk hujan,aku nk pegi kubur akid..
Lpz tu aku kene cpt blk sbb nk pegi uma mak cik pt hougang kumpul dgn family2 yang lain sebelah mak aku..
Tdy papa br kate apt aku dat bsk afiq and erra nk dtg uma yishun.
Papa suro aku dtg uma sane but aku segan.
Bsk pagi baru aku kol uma yishun tanye khabar and wish diorang..
Aku akan dtg ke uma yishun sekiranya mak and bapak die jemput aku dtg uma..
Papa nak aku amek gambar afiq and erra sbb kate nye,papa rindu sgt pt bdk2.
Papa nk tgk gambar bdk2..
Aku cume berharap sgt dat bsk,mak and bapak die jemput aku dtg uma untuk tgk bdk2..
I miss akid,papa,afiq and erra so much..

I'm too tired today

2008-12-03T23:02:00.000+08:00

Today i feel reali fel very tired one whole day all because of last nite i video call in msn wif my sayang...i online wif my sayang till 12+mid-nite..lepaskan rindu la katekan...10days i've not seen his face till last nite i got a chance to look at his face for a long time..I reali miss to see his face wen he smile,he talk and lots more.So last nite we got to stare at each other looking at each other face.Today we are not goin to be online coz tomorrow i'm workin in the morning so tomorrow nite we will continue to meet in msn again...But tomorrow is his father's b'day..I don't noe wheather i should go to his place to meet his father to wish him..I'm also scared and shy to meet his parents..Maybe i should just give him a call to wish..If dey invite m to drop by,i will but if not,i will juz call...Without my sayang around me,i juz don't noe wat to do..Hmm..I juz got noe idea..
I'm goin to clep now but b4 dat,i'm goin to call my sayang first to wish gd nite..
Type again tomorrow..

Pertemuan terakhir ke SPAIN

2008-12-02T19:52:00.000+08:00

It's been 10 day papa pergi ke spain.Aku rase bosan sangat sebab tak tau ape yang nak aku buat pat cini..Klau dulu mase papa pat spore,kite kerap sekali jumpe pegi makan,tengok wayang,jalan2,shopping,"secret" and macam2 lagi yang kite buat tapi skerang...Aku rindukan semua tu..Aku ingat lagi,hari terakhir aku keluar dengan papa sebelum papa berangkat which is,kite jalan2 pat yishun mall.Aku bawakkan passport papa untuk bagi pat papa.Aku duduk dalam train fikirkan tentang papa..Air mata aku jatuh mengalir ke pipi sebab hati aku tak sanggup melihat dan melepaskan papa pergi jauh dari sisi aku..Tapi,aku tak berdaya untuk menahan papa dari pergi mencari rezeki lebih..Bile aku dah jumpe papa pat yishun pon aku nangis..Aku tak dapat tahan kesedihan yang aku pendamkan tapi aku cuba sedaya upaya aku tidak menunjukkan rasa kesedihan aku tu dengan menanya dan bergurau sedikit dengan papa...Kite pegi tengok wayang cerita Madagascar2..Papa nak belanje..Den kite pegi beli makanan pat pasar malam...Dat is our last most memorable day sebelum papa berangkat..The last min and sec kite nak berpisah balik ke rumah masing2,aku sempat ambil gambar dengan papa...It's very sweet sey...Lat beberape hari,aku dapat news dari papa dat papa nak berangkat mlm sat 22/11/2008...Aku hanta papa sampai pat airport...Hati aku berat sangat nak kasi papa pagi tapi aku kuat kan hati....Aku banyak2 bersabar...And now papa da pon berade pat SPAIN..Aku rindu sangat pat papa.....

2008-12-01T20:44:00.000+08:00

Papa ku yang tersayang...
Papa,mama ade byk bende nak ckp dgn papa..Cume kite tk bole bbl lame pt fon...Mama tk tau dgn sape lagi mama nk ckp tentang kesusahan mama pt cni..Mungkin orang tengok mama hapi je mcm orang tkde masalah tp klau orang tau pon,diorang pon tk bole buat ape..Mama pnt nk keje pt pizza hut sbb mama rase pnt sgt lpz keje pt NUH..Klau bole mama tknk keje sey..Tapi disebabkan mama nk kene bayar duit hp singtel,mama kene sambung keje..Bill singtel mama tgl $800+ sey..Mama fikiran sampai bile hutang mama bole habis...Den mama pon nk simpan duit untuk masa depan kite jgksey...Mama malu klau nnt kite nk tunang,byk pkai duit papa den tk fair sey...Mama nk inform papa dat start diz wk,sat & sun mama da start work balik pt pizza hut tau...Mama nk cari duit lebih cikit..Hope by de time papa blk spore je,mama pny duit simpanan da byk cikit..Papa pt sane jimat2 duit tau...Jgn boros..Igat,papa g keje pt sane untuk cari duit lebih untuk settle kan masalah papa pt spore.Jgn plk papa balik,duit gaji yang papa work pt sane pon habis tk npk...Dgr cakap mama..Papa g sane bukan untuk holiday tau but 4 work..Mama duduk pt dpn computer papa & mama npk kunci uma papa same sarung tgn kecik everlast papa yg blue colour ni.Mama teringatkan papa...Mama senyum sendiri bile tgk sarung tgn papa 2..Jap lagi mama nk balik tau...Nnt mama try to kol papa using my kakak pny fon..Tdy mama da kol starhub den mama bagi papa pny no.hp & NRIC no. but tk bole...bsk mama try kol lg starhub...I'll inform u if ders any news k syg...Mama nk log out ni...Bsk mama tulis lagi k...Gd afternoon & gd night papa..Sweet dreamz,clep tite...Nnt work igatkan mama tau...Mama clep mimpikan papa...Mama syg n rindu sgt pt papa...Mama sentiase tunggu smp papa balik spore syg...muackz muackz muackz muackz......

MIMPIKAN PAPA.....

2008-11-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

PAPA..
MAMA TADI BACE BOLG YANG PAPA TULIS KAN,MAMA MACAM NAK NANGIS SEY BUT MAMA CONTROL MYSELF NOT TO CRY...SEMALAM MALAM,MAMA TIDO MIMPIKAN MAMA..MAMA MIMPI DAT MAMA JUMPE PAPA PAT SPAIN...PAPA BAWAK MAMA JALAN2 PAT SANE...ABES TU,MAMA NAMPAK ADE ORANG MELAYU TINGGAL PAT SANE...LEPAS TU MAMA JALAN DEGNAN PAPA PEGANG TANGAN PAPA AND MAMA DAPAT PELUK PAPA...LEPAS TU MAMA TERSADAR.MAMA TENGOK GAMBAR KITE PAT HP MAMA...MAMA RINDU SANGAT PAT PAPA SAMPAI MAMA MIMPIKAN PAPA..MAMA RINDU KAN PAPA,AFIQ,ERRA AND AKID....PAPA CEPAT2 BALIK YE...MAMA TAK SABAR NAK TUNGGU PAPA BALIK....LUV AND MIZ U SO MUCH SYG MUACKZ3....

2008-11-30T23:11:00.000+08:00

Hai papa sayang....
Papa ape khabar pat sane?Mama pat cini sihat2 la cume da start selseme je..Mama da tulis panjang2 tibe2 intrnet mati da kne rewrite balik..Mama rindu sangat la pat papa...Baru seminggu papa pergi tapi mama rase macam da sebulan gitu papa da pegi..Mama tak sabar sangat nak jumpe papa lagi...Mama rindu sangat mase kite spend our time together after mama and papa abes work.Kite gi makan,tengok wayang,jalan2...Now klau mama nak pegi,mama kene tunggu sampai papa balik spore.Mama nak papa tau dat mama pat cini takde niat langsung nak main belakang papa ataupon menduakan papa.Mama pon tak terfikir nak kaluar gi clubbing dngan kawan2 mama sebab papa takde pat cini untuk pagi dengan mama..Papa,tadi kan mama gi jemputan kan den mama tengok ade gambar pengantin pat sebelah pelamin di.Mama pon imagine la papa and mama sanding naik pelamin den gambar pengantin kite ade pat sebelah besar2 orang bole nampak...Mama tak tau bile mase nye impian mama menjadi kenyataan..Papa,next week mama da start keje pat pizza hut tau..Mama nak make myself buzy so dat mama tak sedih2 teringatkan papa..Mama pon belom start simpan duit lagi sebab mama tak cukup duit nak bayar bill...Papa,besok mama gi uma papa tengok ur mother..Mama gi celebrate annivrsary kite dengan ur mother...Papa,mama nak wish papa HAPPY 2YRS 5MTHS ANNIVERSARY......Mama doakan hubungan yang kite bine ini akan kekal buat slama-lamanye....Mama harap papa dan mama akan sentiase dan selalu menyayangi dan mrindui sesama lain dan kite akan kuat untuk menghadapi cobaan dan dugaan bersama....Mama tulis sampai cini...Besok mama tulis lagi...Mama Sayang dan rindu sangat pat papa.....Muackz muackz muackz muackz......

Message For U

2008-11-30T22:33:00.000+08:00

Papa sayang...

Mama baru jugak sampai uma ni.tak sempat nak buat pape,mama gi bace blog dulu..mama gairah dan gembira sangat bile mama nak bace blog yang di tulis oleh papa..hanya ini je la carenye untuk kite communicate.bile kite bebual pat fon,kite tak bole bebual panjang2 and lame2 sebab mama punye pp8 cepat habis bile kol papa...Papa,mama sedih bile bace blog tadi.Mama almost nak nangis tadi bale tgh bace but mama kene control diri mama..Mama rase macam tak percaye dat papa da pergi for 1week.Mama rase macam papa da pergi for 1 bulan sey..Lame lagi sey papa nak balik..Macam skarang papa takde pat cini,mama rase sunyi sangat..Dulu bile mama nak gi tengok wayang,makan,jalan2,mama selalu pergi dengan papa..But now,bile mama nak smue 2,papa takde pat cini untuk pergi dengan mama..Da mama sorang2 pat cini..Mama cume bole dapat smue 2 bile papa da balik s'pore nanti..Mama tau papa nak cari duit lebih sebab itu papa pergi tinggalkan mama buat smentare waktu ni.Mama hope papa cepat2 balik s'pore.Mama tak tahan nak lepaskan rindu pat papa..

mengigau pasal mama tersayang 30.11.2008

2008-11-30T20:18:00.000+08:00

hi mama mok,mama pat sana sihat tak?papa pat sini sihat2 aje,mama mok nak tau tak papa semalam ngigau pasal mama,papa ngigau ngah bebual ngan mama,papa rase mcm mama ade pat sebelah papa so papa bebual aje tak stop2 tapi bila papa tersadar mama takde seh pat sebelah papa,airmata papa tiba2 mengalir dan mengangis tanpe berlagu tanak kasi org dengar,papa pat sini betol2 rase kehilangan mama,papa rindu senyuman mama,gurauan mama,manje mama,kesedihan mama dan segale2 nye papa rindu tentang mama,gambar mama aje yg boleh papa sentoh,airmata papa mengalir bila fikir kan mama pat sana hari2 buat pe,kadang2 papa fikir papa menyesal tinggal kan mama sendirian kat sana,gunung yg tinggi sanggup ku daki ape lagi lautan yg luas sanggup ku renangi utk bukti kan cinta papa terhadap mama,dah takde kata2 utk papa jelas kan kat mama yg papa cinta kan mama,kate2 ni jujur dari hati papa dan luah kan kat mama,sudah 2 tahun lebih kita bersama tak pernah berpisah,hingga kan skarang,papa rase hidop papa kosong bila mama takde ngan papa,papa berjanji bila papa dah balik ke spore papa tak akan tinggal kan mama seorang diri walaupun sehari,papa akan sentiasa berada di sisi mama baik pun ape2 k,insyak allah papa dah balik dah settle problem papa,genap papa nngan mama 3 tahun kita tunang k,buat skarang papa nak mama banyak berdoa utk keselamatan papa dan tenang kan fikiran mama k,tak mau stress2,sedih2 tau,concentrate mama nye nursing course,1 hari mama berjaya papa pun akan berjaya,terakhir skali papa nak ucap kan happi advance 2yrs5mths anniversary,papa doa ape yg slame ini kita berkorban utk hubungan ini akan kekal buat selamenye,papa cinta,rindu dan sayang pat mama buat selamanye,mama kat sane ingat kan papa sebelum buat ape2 tau,luv n miz u so much,muacks,muacks,muacks...........

1 week in spain (sevilla) 29 nov 2008

2008-11-29T22:12:00.000+08:00

hi mama mok yg ku syg,sudah seminggu berlalu semangkin rindu kat mama,papa tau mama sedih bila papa berpisah ngan mama pat airport tapi ini 1 peluang yg baik utk papa cari duit lebih,papa harap mama faham dan tau kenape papa pergi,banyak yg papa nak bilang mama tapi tak bleh habis kalau kita bebual pat talipon,pat sini lah yg bleh papa jelas kan,maaf kan papa dan jg marah pat papa cuma faham papa aje,sini cuaca nye sejuk baik pagi,siang dan malam,temperature kat sini bawah 15 degree celcious,papa cuba sedaya upaya utk panas kan diri tapi tak bleh,so papa terpakse minum whisky atau beer bukan utk mabok tapi panas kan diri utk keje,kalau pasal perempuan kat sini mama jgn risau semua papa tak pandang,papa tau papa dtg sini utk keje buat duit dan balik,papa cuma ade 3 aje kat hati papa ialah mama mok,anak2 kita dan famili papa,setiap saat papa ingat kan mama dan famili papa tak pernah papa miss,sewaktu tido kadang2 airmata papa mengalir tanda rindu sangat kat mama dan org2 pat sana,selalu papa pandang bulan kerna bulan itu membuat mama ade pat sebelah papa,papa terpakse jage kesihatan papa pat sini pasal tanak mama atau famili papa risau kat papa,kesedihan mama bleh papa rase kan pat sini,mama tak mau sedih2,ngangis dan bimbang cuma papa nak mama doa kan papa selamat dan cepat balik k,papa tak sabar nak lepas kan rindu pat mama seh,papa sentiasa mencintai dan rindui mama setiap saat,luv n miz u so much,muacks,muacks,muacks......

2008-11-29T17:39:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time i've not login writting anything in this blog.

So today im starting again to write in it..

Hanya ini lah carenye untuk aku melegakan hati aku.

Aku sangat mrindui seseorang yg sangat aku cintai..

Sayangnye die bekerja di luar negeri untuk mencari rezeki untuk diri dan anak2 nye..

Aku tak sanggup untuk meihat die pergi tapi aku tak berdaya untuk menghalang..

Aku tahu die ade banyak masalah yang aku sendiri tak dapat nk menolong.

Aku hanya mampu menolong die menggunakan tangan dan kaki empat kerat ini tapi bukan wang..

Aku tahu die harus memberi wang nafkah untuk kedua2 anak nye..

Dan juga die harus menyimpan wang untuk bertunang dangan aku pada tahun hadapan..

Ape yg mampu aku berikan padanye hanya doa keselamatan die di negeri orang dan nenunggu kepulangan die ke singapura ini...

Aku ingin kau tahu bahawa aku sangat menyintai diri kau....

2008-09-24T04:09:00.000+08:00

Aku tk tau thn ni dpt k aku g ziarah kubur AKID..
Thn lpz aku da la tk g sbb hujan den tkde sape nk tmn kan aku g sane..
Tp aku plan to pegi on this coming sunday 28/09/2008 sbb aku pon da abes uzur & aku pon free,tk keje..
Aku cm tkt je plan aku tk dpt d jalan kan..
Aku tkt bl aku nk pegi je ziarah kubur AKID,aku tersekat2..
Hope bl aku nk pegi nnt,semua nye berjln dgn lancar & tk ape yg tersekat..
Aku rindu sgt pt AKID..
Cume tuhan je yg tau bertapa rindu nye aku pt AKID walaupon aku tk pegi ziarah die..
Aku syg sgt pt AKID..Aku tau aku tk bole menyenangkan AKID jika die di beri peluang unt hidup di dunia ini..

MUHAMAD NUR AKID!!!
MAMA RINDU & SAYANG SANGAT PAT AKID...

SAYANG & RINDU DARI
MAMA NANA

" LONG TIME "

2008-09-24T03:56:00.000+08:00

ITS BEEN ALONG DAY I'VE NOT WRITTEN ANYTHING IN MY OWN BLOG..
I'VE FINISH MY EXAM FOR 1.2 MODULE..NOW WAT DID I DO DURING MY HOLIDAY IS WORKING & GOING OUT...
DIZ YEAR HARI RAYA I DIDN'T PLAN FOR ANY COLOUR OF CLOTH FOR DE FIRST DAY B'COZ IM WORKING IN DE MORNING AND I'LL BE AT DE GATHERING PLACE ONLY IN THE AFTERNOON AFTER I'VE FINISH MY WORK..
I'LL BE WEARING MY WORKING UNIFORM TO MY AUNTY HOUSE WHICH IS NEAR BY FROM MY WORKING PLACE..
I DON'T KNOW WHO WILL BE THERE WEN I REACH DER..

EXAM!!!!

2008-09-09T13:46:00.000+08:00

NARI AKU ADE EXAM...
CN PLK 2...ITS NOT EASY TAU...
MMG AKU DPT JWB ALMOST ALL DE QUESTION BUT STILL AKU RASE JAWAPAN YG AKU TULIS MCM SALAH G2..
AKU SUSPECT AKU FAIL LA...
LAGI PON AKU CUME ADE CONFIDENT IN FAILING JE...
BSK PLK ADE BEHAVIOURAL SCIENCE...
TK TAU LA KLAU AKU BOLE BUAT...
AKU DOA BYK2 SBB TKT TK DPT JAWAP SOALAN ...
SETIAP SOALAN YG AKU BIKIN,MESTI AKU DOA,BACE BISMILLAH...
ALHAMDLILAH HATI AKU TENANG JE TDY..
HOPE BSK PON SAME....

2008-09-04T21:15:00.001+08:00

Today is de 4th day of fasting.
I'm scared dat i couldn't make it to fast for 1 whole mth
It's b'coz sometimes i couldn't control my anger on everyting dat is around m
I juz feel like fuckin dem up
But i need to control myself b'coz i'm fasting
And at de same time,
I'm happy dat i receive my result for behaviour science juz nw in klaz
But i only score 25 on de dot over 50marks
I'm abit lucky dat previous test i scored 33marks
Atleast it can pull abit of my marks.
I hope dat i couldn't do my best in my examination diz cming tuesday

2008-09-04T21:06:00.000+08:00

1st September 2008
It's my 2yrs 2mth Anniversary wif my belovered boyfriend
Too bad dat we couldn't meet up on dat day
Coz i'm not skolin on dat day and....

1st September is also de 1st day of PUASA
I need to fast for 1mth den i could celebrate HARI RAYA
I juz hope dat i didn't encounter any abnormality during fasting
I wan to fast for 1mth
I also intended to lose weight during diz 1mth.
I hope dat i could lessen my appitite of eating

Hari Raya diz year,i didn't plan to go out for visit 2 my fwen house or anybody
I couldn't affort to buy myself a new cloths or even my 2 kids..
I juz hope dat dey both wont b angry wif m...

Bad Day!!

2008-08-26T22:37:00.000+08:00

Today,i feel as if im being use by someone.

Im being pull and push all around.

And ended up,im being left behind.

It's all started after that person has met the lover's.

Im lucky to have a partner who also followed around.

Im not surprise at all for what is happening coz,i already knew this will happen in real life.

Me and my partner we surprise to know that the lover were being fooled around by that person.

I don't dare to lie to th lover bcoz i doesn't want to get involv in any problem.

Me and my partner were just disappointed wiht that persons attitude and her way of treating us as a friend.

We doesn't want to follow or listen to what she's going to say again.

I hope this will be the last time of treasuring a friend like that......

2008-08-25T10:14:00.000+08:00

I've been in love for more than 2yrs+...

Im very happy to be with him till now...

We both have been thru thick & thin together...

We had a plan to upgrade our relationship to

become a family in future...

To have our own house...

To have our own master bed room...

To have 2 children of a girl & a boy...

We will have a total of 4 children...

Confuse right??

He had 2 children with his ex-wife & he will

get 2 more children from me when we are

stable in financial...

This is all what i dream for our future...

But we won't know if our dream might

come thru...

MY NEW DAY!!!!

2008-08-23T14:30:00.000+08:00

Dis is my first time havin a blog dat i could write out watever feelin dat ive kept in my heart 4 so long..wenever i hv a problem,i could turn to my blog.i don need 2 find anybody 2 cheer m up.i dowan 2 a burden 2 anybody...